This section is provided with contributions by Daisy, Adam's mother. It is a collection of personal thoughts and poems she has embraced to help cope with the loss of her precious little boy. Only a parent who has suffered such a loss can truly understand the agony and emptiness she feels. Some of these thoughts and poems have been sent to her by others who still walk that same dark path. It is provided here in the hopes it may also send comfort to others. 

Experts say it can take three to five years to reach a level where life even reaches any sense of normalcy. Those who have been there often describe a span of ten years before they came to grips with the loss of a child, considered the most devastating of all losses. 

Please God, I Have My Hand Up!
The Elephant In The Room
The Broken Chain
Unanswered Prayers

"Please God, I have my hand up.  May I be excused for a while from this huge classroom where we live and learn the lessons of life?  I am finding the lessons of this world too hard to learn.  Can I stop off for just a while to rest in a quiet place?  As you know I have lost my child and I am very tired of this day that I'm in.  The role is too hard, the words are false.  My face is a mask and my smile is unreal.  The only truth I see is love and love lost, so please God, may I be excused from traveling on this road for a while?  I've had my hand up for a long time."

There's an elephant in the room.
It is large and squatting, so it is hard to get around it.
Yet we squeeze by with "How are you?" and "I'm fine."
And a thousand other forms of trivial chatter.
We talk about the weather.
We talk about work.
We talk about everything else.
Except the elephant in the room.
We all know it is there.
We are thinking about the elephant as we talk together.
It is constantly on our minds.
For, you see, it is a very big elephant.
It has hurt us all.
But we do not talk about the elephant in the room.
Oh, please, say his name.
Oh, please, say "Adam" again.
Oh, please, let's talk about the elephant in the room.
For if we talk about his death, 
Perhaps we can talk about his life.
Can I say "Adam" to you and not have you look away:
For if I cannot, 
Then you are leaving me alone.
In a room.
With an elephant.

We little knew that day
That GOD would call your name
In life we loved you dearly
In death we do the same
It broke our hearts to lose you
You did not go alone
For part of us went with you
The day GOD called you home
You left us peaceful memories
Your love is still our guide
Though we cannot see you
You are always by our side
Our family chain is broken
Nothing seems the same
But as GOD calls us one by one
The chain will link again.

I said a prayer day and night,
'Lord please let my baby be all right,
Please be with him all the while,
please be with him and make him smile,
never for once leave his side
be with him, don't ever hide,
make him better as can be,
fix his broken heart... thats my plea.'

I thought for a long time, my prayers were not heard.
I thought the Lord, didn't hear that little bird,
I didn't understand, why He didn't listen to me,
It wasn't until only recently that He helped me to see.

One day I heard a voice in my head
I had to listen close, but this is what He said,
'I was with your baby day and night,
and I decided it was time for him to take flight.
I freed him from the pain he had in this life,
now, he will never more have to go through strife.
He gave you those smiles, because he knew I was near.
You see Adam knew, he had nothing to fear.
I did make him better, as better as can be,
I know this is hard for you to see.
But he is so happy and always with you,
if you look real hard, you will see and hear him too.
One day soon you will meet again,
when your time on earth comes to an end,
until that time comes believe me when I say
I did what was best....for Adam....that day.'

I now know that God did answer my prayers.
I now know that He was always there.
Even though at times, we just can't see
That God is there, helping you and me.
There is never a prayer that He doesn't hear,
and there is never a time when He isn't near.
We have to have faith, that He knows what's best.
We have to remember that in life we have tests.
But God answers all of our prayers, He is always at our side.
In Him we have to have faith, He will always be our guide.